Shalš°§m to you: Let me re-introduce myself
Without disordered eating, With humility, deep celebration and invitations for collaboration + communion.
SHALOM TO YOU + THOSE YOU LOVE + TO THIS WORLD RIGHT NOW.
I hope this email finds you well.
and if you donāt feel well in this momentā¦ I hope this email love letter about life to evokes some light and love within you.
The facilitator in me wishes to prompt you : Asking you to breathe and look aroundā¦ sense the surroundings of you : to then take a moment to sense your inner world. Through that very body and breath of yours: Asking any dis-ease, aches and pains what it needs : and loving it so (like seriously. do it).
Taken in Vista California, Playing musician + photographer + Video Creator for soul sisters who I will be working with again in May : to sit in plant ceremonies and to embody the facilitator I am beside them. How to join the next one with me is further down in this email.
IF WE HAVE KEPT IN TOUCH :
you know the dramatic shifts in my life that I took to heal. If we haven't, the story is long and twisted, but the most important part of it... with a simcha (celebration... yah that's what my name means!)Ā I am here humbly to say: I no longer suffer from disordered eating.
What an embodiment it's been to find the celebration in my death - why I took this name on with my full body: to fight for my life through healing.
The people who have supported me, I am wordless in gratitude : from prayers, to songsā¦ poemsā¦ expressions, sacred gifts, sharing resources, sending finances, the readings Iāve gotten to do that you donated to support me in return, the messagesā¦ voicesā¦ space held together: it has changed my life.
I didn't know what I needed, to be honest, but I let my body and my spirit lead, guiding me on a ride that most would not want to take or not see reason in. What I can see now, is that I really needed to get in touch with the little girl in me who you couldn't keep inside, for I always wanted to be with the natural world. Trying to fit into this World has always been an obstacle course for me : for the way it works just doesnātā¦ feel right. That system the World is, is so far from my own truthā¦ so I needed to go back to the girl who chased lightning bugs and talked to ghosts.
I needed to get as close to the earth as possible: walk the path of a healer in the name of hope I could heal. It became quite real, to quit my job and cut off the ability to support myself. Go back to the little girl that told her mom, āI am going to be an artist. I donāt care if that means live in a box.ā Funny thing is, I built my own big wood slab fortress in slab city, and it was quite beautiful.
What I didnāt know this would be: was a protest to the system by being the things everyone has learned to judge, to hate, to scorn, to hope they never becomeā¦ undocumented, moneyless, homeless, running out of water, going through natural disasters, being in slab city for a summerā¦ a lot of the things that are judged deeply by our societyā¦ I have gotten to experience. humbly. I see now that I needed to fall that deep into despair and learn how to love myself: it was an exile from the world I felt forced to live in with my sicknessā¦ to recover.
I bless the deaths and rebirths. The floods, the fires, the helplessness, the journey of allowing myself to be what our society sees as so... sad/wrong/bad (whatever your connection is to it): homeless. undocumented. unemployed. a beggar.
I have gotten to become someone who lives in surrender and trust with spirit, that I will find what I need and be held, as I continue to do what I can to heal and serve the land and those I have the honor to connect with in all dimensions and varieties.
From this journey, I come to report back with full truth: I haven't turned to bulimia in two years. That dis-ease has been worked through, by learning how to tend to my own system of nerves, spirit, soul, body. That thing I thought I would die with, isnāt something that is part of my life.
A miracle it is: knowing I did not do this alone.
As a sacred economist, I stepped into the energetics of money, to finance my way through a variety of healing arts with soul family who I have met in this life. I wish to list some of the ones that ā¦ get to have a shout out (click the links to meet these magical people I am blessed to life with).
SHOUT OUTS WITH DEEP THANKS
BRIANNA LYNN : A long friendtor of mine, who have gone through many deaths and rebirths side by side in collective energy. She has a Mystery School that is a place of home for me to study in. JOIN HER SCHOOL HERE
OPEN YOUR DIVINE CHANNEL : Spirit Willow and Tara Samadhi : Two sisters who I have had the honor to begin to work with in their mystery school + accompany them in their ceremonies to collaborate together (meet me there for their next ceremony? see them HERE)
SOUL BEARING MEDICINE: Two humans who I currently claim nomad family, Who I am grateful to learn new ways to shamanic journey, listen to the land, speak to the spiritual world, and to work with the intangible dis-ease that our body holds. You can learn more about them HERE (photo of June below. by yours truly)
BINA ALTERA: This, a soul sister who has been using me as a support to her soul work of artistry, branding, consulting - by allowing me to be apart of her process of being an artist. Thanks to her, I am able to see more clearly how I can serve those who are in service. Her work can be drooled at HERE
KESLER ERNST: This is my partner in crime of this wholly life. The Crane to this lady, who held me while we channeled together The Wholly School. We are beginning to return to this together. JOIN THE SCHOOL HERE (and join us in re-launching?)
BEIT KOHENET: This, one of my homes of Jewish Studies. Classes, shabbats, ceremonies, circles and the ability to connect during this timeā¦ I am so grateful. See their site HERE
NOW, I PUT MY NAME ON YOUR TABLE:
The time has come for me to say, "throw me in coach!"
Something I see very clearly is that I get to lead circles again.
My go-to is to open my space in The Wholly School and begin there. Again, see the school HERE
I also feel the calling to have a free circle at least once a month to work with people as a collective.
The other thing coming to life is to be working with people by being the doula that I am : in creating their next step in life. This feels like a collection of people who are creating services for the world, where we create the things together: in collaboration to offer to the world.
If any of these offerings spark you, please let yourself write what you see: how I can support, what your intentions are and what you see possible from our collaboration.
COLLABORATIONS IN PERSON
Good thing I'm on wheels. I come with my dog and my van, so the requirement before even figuring is for me to have a safe space for me to live so with Shalom, as well as access to 1st world treats (like, to be able to bathe, have running water, have some space to be. Weather taken into consideration.)
I have always seen myself as the Annie Lebovitz doula artist: who comes to commune with people, hold space, let there be healing, as well as documentation and creation: in the name of something. For your story to be told, your services to be created, for you to have the opportunity to be my muse as we work on expression and embodiment, to practice the experience with you, to support you in facilitating it in however I can, etc.
EXAMPLES OF WAYS I CAN SERVE:
hereās a video I created also showcasing the photography, from that ceremony I invited you to:
I find it a task to explain all of the faces, roles and creations that can be options, for I am a doula of humanityā¦ for an embodimentā¦ archetypeā¦ creation to be made between the two of us. The magnet that draws people together is for a reason: to learn how to commune next to another, when we are mirrors of each other - as we learn how to live from love.
If you wish to read more about me in my slightly archaic website from my Dolores days, you can take it in HERE.
holding space + doula-ing your creations to life
weekend immersions + workshops
being on your team: as you lead to collaborate
photography / video
artist / art teacher
drum / movement / expression
weekly meetings to support in integration/creation
consultation meetings based off of your intentions to see what support you need at bringing your wholly work to life
wherever you meditated me on your teamā¦
THANK YOU FOR DOING THIS THING CALLED LIFE WITH ME.
I hope you clicked on one of my friends and they inspired you, as well as my words. If you wish to work together, please reach out so we can begin.
You are loved. Good Shabbas for those who are preparing for the sun to go down.
Simcha
Witnessing your soul! So beautiful and raw! May the collaborations continue weaving seamlessly and endlessly in the name of healing! Thank you Simcha for your being in the name of Celebration!!!
This is so beautiful Simchašŗ You are the Art that can be truly experienced, a warm blanket to my heart and soul. Thank you for sharing your healing giftsšš